When I started Ruth in Revolt, it began with a post which discusses a universal struggle inside all of us. The battle between our inner cheerleader and our inner bully. One is supporting you while the other is tearing you down. Some days, they exist in harmony. Others, one is louder than other. If you’re lucky, the louder voice is the cheerleader. If you’re not so lucky, it’s the bully.
I had fallen into a place where my bully was deafening. Depression and anxiety had taken over. Yet, when I began taking anti-depressants, my cheerleader became loud enough to encourage me to start this blog. There is still work to be done, so she’s still hanging around at a pretty quiet volume, but I can hear her. That’s a starting point.
This blog was created as an act of defiance against the niggling voice which told me nobody would care what I had to say. It is still very much that. Despite the things I have been able to do, there are days when I am terrified to hit publish, but I do it anyway. Even with all the kind feedback I have had about my writing, there are days when I am plagued with self-doubt and consider deleting everything. In spite of that, I push forward because it’s about more than me now.
I am very open about my mental health struggles, and the journey I am on to try and fix them. This will continue because it’s an important conversation. I want people to know mental health problems are real, they’re hard to live with and it’s okay to ask for help.
However, I feel like Ruth in Revolt is developing into something else; something I didn’t expect but I am so proud of.
It is becoming a space of positivity; a corner of the internet where people can come and feel good. I mean, I cover some pretty rough stuff, too, but I try to round it off with a shimmer of light. I have a perpetual need to find the bright sides. If I couldn’t do that, I would consider my battle to be lost.
What I discovered when I started connecting with other bloggers is that, while I am fairly hopeless at cheering for myself, I’m a pro at doing it for other people. You could ask me to list five of my best qualities, and it would take me hours – days, even. However, ask me about any of my favourite bloggers, and I’ll have it to you in ten minutes if that.
My time on social media is dedicated to lifting people up; to making sure they know someone is rooting for them. If someone is having a rough day, I’ll let them know my inbox is open because it’s good to talk. I may not have all the answers, but I have open ears (well, eyes in this case) and an open heart, and I’m ready to give people the boost they need.
I become their personal cheerleader.
You know, just in case theirs has lost their voice, too. I’ve found this is a much more rewarding use of time than picking myself to pieces. I want people to know they aren’t alone. If I can be anything, I want to be an example that there are good people in the world. It’s so easy to forget that, and I have become determined to be a reminder for anyone I cross paths with.
I guess it is what a lot of people have been looking for because, coupled with a lot of hard work, my blog has gone places far quicker than I thought it would. In turn, I have also found a lot of people coming to me for advice on their own blogs. Maybe it’s because I’m a bit of a geek, or maybe it’s because I just want to help people in any way I can but I do my very best to provide them with answers. I send them articles, videos, e-courses – anything I believe will take them in the right direction. I started writing blog posts with tips and found people loved those, too.
Thus, the tagline has been born:
Ruth in Revolt: Your personal cheerleader, on a one-woman mission to make your life brighter and your blog better.
There are exciting things ahead for this blog, I can feel it. For the first time in a long time, I have a sense of purpose. It seems like I’m right where I need to be. The first thing I am developing is a series called Celebrate The Wins, which is created to celebrate all the good bits in life. It is based on reader submissions. They share their victories with me and I get to read them, squeal with delight and then share them with everyone else! Eventually, I will be developing the blogging coach side of things, too.
In the meantime, if you need a personal cheerleader, a friend and a blogging buddy, I am happy to oblige. I would love for you to join me on the journey. I am a strong believer in the idea that the best way to go through life is by being kind to each other. You may think trampling all over others will get you where you want to be quicker, and maybe it will, but you’ll be lonely when you get there. Let’s go places together. Let’s tackle our inner bullies together. Best of all, let’s grow together. One day, we’ll be able to look back and see how far we’ve come.